Damn You

I had a dream about you last night...

Forgive me, it was spotty and there are a lot of gaps.

I was walking around campus and we ran into each other. Literally we did. I took a step back and apologized with my face down like I usually do. And you said it was okay, which caught my attention. I looked up at you and my entire body lit up with joy. In one quick motion I launched myself into a tight embrace around your tall and broad frame. You held me so close. I could smell you and it brought tears to my eyes. It was so comforting.

You set me down and I looked at myself, wondering if I looked alright. "What are you doing here?" I asked. "I live here now." "But I thought you left?" "Well, I lived in Portland for awhile." You explained. I rolled my eyes and shook my head. "Funny, I was going to move there." I informed.

We began walking and we went from being on campus to being in some quad. It was dark and it had been raining. It didn't bother me though. "I have to get to the airport." You said and I frowned. "But why?" "My great uncle died. Please will you be with me?" I couldn't say no, even though I had to work later. I took your hand and we began to run all over the city, getting everything we needed to get you back. Your brother was always waiting in the distance. I stopped midway through our adventure. "What happened to her?" I asked and you looked a little surprised. "Oh...We were engaged but we separated. She's long gone now." "I figured she'd be the one here." "Oh no, she's back here. She loves this place. You know that." Of course I did..."We're still kind of together, but not really." I didn't understand what you meant, but I went along with it anyhow.

 It grew to be dark and I realized I had never gone to work. As we went back to campus, I noticed all three of my bosses were there and looking disappointed. I explained you were a dear friend of mine and I had to be with you, you needed me. They rolled their eyes and walked away. I turned around to tell you that everything would be alright and you were gone.

My eyes flew open and I took in such a sharp inhale that I felt dizzy. In a moment I registered that I was in my apartment, it was still dark, and you weren't really there. I fell back asleep with tears in my eyes knowing now it was only a dream. When I really woke up, someone asked if I was okay. They said I looked sad. "Just tired." I told them and pushed your face far into the recesses of my mind.