Kryptonite

I had a dream about both of you last night....

You were standing in our apartment. You were looking at me while you were getting ready for work. Everything was normal. Everything was the same. It was like were going through our normal routine. You kissed me good-bye and you were out the door. Never to be seen again.

The other...you...

I was out of town and at the video store. You were working behind the cash register, wearing a red shirt. You smiled at me so wide it made my skin crawl. You followed me out of the store and came up behind me. You pulled me into your lap and your hand went up the inside of my thigh. Slowly you tried to spread them and whispered in my ear, "Call me Daddy..." I cringed and you could feel it. I felt you smile in return. I stood out of your lap and I was dressed in lingerie. I didn't know how you did it, but I felt so vulnerable. I felt like I couldn't escape your eyes. You were always there, smiling at me. I tried to run away, but you never left my side.

I woke with a feeling of loneliness and disgust. I miss you, but the other...The other I know you're around the corner. This is what always happens.